Not seeking, but finding things anyway.

In one week, I came across several items from my life long ago.  They weren’t being sought, I just found them.

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Sometimes when you look back at things with a fresh pair of eyes, you have to wonder about yourself.

There was a scathing e-mail I found sent to one of the executives I work with (yes, I still have to work with this person).  It wasn’t very long, but I did not hold back.  I ripped that clown to shreds and I carbon copied my then boss and human resources.  Holy sh*t.  When I read and re-read the e-mail, even with all the detail, I didn’t remember the incident at all — not one thing.  Sure, it was about 8 or 9 years ago, but you would think I’d remember the incident that brought Fire and Brimstone and Hell Hath No Fury Like A Pint Sizer.  I drew a complete blank.  I’m surprised I wasn’t fired.

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Not only does something show your age, but how outdated your life may be.

I also found the job posting (for the company where I still work to this day), a copy of the resume I used when I applied, my cover letter, the internal announcement to all staff when I was hired and a few other related items.  Things were so much simpler then.  As I struggle through another job search today over a dozen years later, wow, how times have changed.  The recruiter I used has since retired.  The website where the job was posted no longer exists.  (Do people even get responses when applying online any more?)  What really caught my attention were the papers.  They were faded, a bit warped and yellow.  Kind of like my life right now.

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Talk and no action.

I’d been at a deadlock with my resume for some time, so I decided to look back at a few old files on my computer.  I found a career plan and mission statement I’d completely forgotten.  The document wasn’t that old — created about 5 years ago.  What struck me were so many of the things I wanted to change were still unchanged and my sentiments were brutally honest — very raw.  I couldn’t avoid what was in front of me: Doing nothing truly gets you nowhere.

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When it still feels like it was yesterday.

And then I found something I really wished I hadn’t found — my cousin’s obituary.  It’s been over 23 years since his sudden passing.  I was not in a good place then and I’m not a good place now.  His passing was and still is the single most devastating loss in my life.  I idolized him completely.  He was the big brother I never had — smart, funny, protective, bossy.  We were only 14 months apart.  He was everything.  And three months after I last saw him, he was gone.

Now, I’m left wondering what all this means.  I head into another week with questions and no answers.

Newport Polo: USA v. Jamaica…The horses, the hats, the gorgeous weather…

…Oh, and the Jamaican polo players…The Caribbean really knows how to produce…talent. *blink*

Seriously, it was a little difficult to keep the focus once their helmets were off and they were walking around sans horses.  (P.S. Not ignoring the players from the USA. No, not at all, but the Caribbean contingent really wanted the Jamaican players to know they were appreciated and supported.  Mad love to the island men.)

The Date:  August 17, 2013

The Location:  Newport (actually, Portsmouth), Rhode Island

The Teams:  USA and Jamaica (not Queens, the island in the Caribbean)

Presenting…Newport Polo in Photos (not necessarily in order).

Special Note: My apologies for some of the less than focused photographs included. Some photos were taken with my camera. Some with my mobile phone.  Also, please read/re-read the notice on this blog about the use/re-use of photographs.

P.S. If you missed my post from last year, read it –> here.  Definitely more photos this year. It helped immensely that we weren’t hiding under umbrellas during the pouring rain.

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